I didn't want to hurt you. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to share you but that's never going to change. And it's not like I don't know it's hypocritical.
But I can't shut down the voice in my head that tells me you have no reason to stay with me. I want to encourage Haruki to let himself love and be loved but I hate that he's no longer mine alone.
You already know two different version of me and they've both managed to become gods, so why waste your time with me.
The more people you care about the more you'll see there's nothing worth caring about when it comes to me.
I can only compete if I force you to look at myself and myself only.
Re: day 106 morning
I didn't want to hurt you. I just don't know what to do. I don't want to share you but that's never going to change. And it's not like I don't know it's hypocritical.
But I can't shut down the voice in my head that tells me you have no reason to stay with me. I want to encourage Haruki to let himself love and be loved but I hate that he's no longer mine alone.
You already know two different version of me and they've both managed to become gods, so why waste your time with me.
The more people you care about the more you'll see there's nothing worth caring about when it comes to me.
I can only compete if I force you to look at myself and myself only.