You might just end up scaring him. ... Back when I was Kabukimono he told me he didn't know if he was capable of being happy. Or capable of loving. I know how that feels because it wasn't different for me.

He knows you want to be loved. And he's worried he might not be able to give you that. But that alone is already proof that he cares.

If you tell him what happened yesterday he might decide not to even pursue it if he knows just how much I exploded.

I don't want that ...

I want you both for myself and I want to trap you, make sure you will never escape my reach, no matter the cost. But I also want you to be happy. And he's just now accepting some of his emotions.

I don't want this to ruin that any more than I want it to ruin us.