Isn't that going to be just a temporary solution? You'll still have to go back eventually. And I'm not going to abandon Haruki now.

[ leaving another kiss to his cheek - and then his lips ]

I'll get over it. When we're happy, it feels really, really good. I want to focus on that. I'm going to. All the background noise I feel ... every bad thought and voice telling me to expect the worst - I'll try to shut it down.