I don’t mind it. I enjoy Yvette’s company and I can more easily keep an eye on Pitcka, but it’s just depressing to think that Wild City once had a full team and now… [ he shrugs, setting the glass upside down. ]
But there were definitely only two teams I would really want to be joined with - his and yours. [ he reaches for zhongli’s outfit. ] And speaking of… you’re on Taisho now?
[ he reaches for zhongli’s hand. ] Yeah. Isn’t that something Taisho can do?
[ he simultaneously lifts zhongli’s hand and bows his head, dropping a kiss onto it. ] …this place almost fell apart on us, and because there’s hardly anybody left they’ve combined several unit together. I just… [ he squeezes his hand. ] no matter what happens I love you, Xiansheng, and we’ll eventually get that happily ever after. [ perhaps not the most formal contract, or even a contract at all, but he just felt compelled to say it given the sudden uncertainty of everything. ]
[ he takes his own hand back with a smile, ] How’s that?
[ He does not allow Childe to pull his hand back (not now of all times), but instead laces their fingers together and settles their joined hands between them. ]
We will. Even if we have to search a thousand worlds for a thousands lifetimes, I will find you again and stay by your side. Even if we are apart, know that you live in my heart and in my memories and that I am thinking of you fondly and the times of when we will once again be together.
You do not need a contract for that.
I do not need to hold you to your word. Nor do I wish to punish you if events spiral out of both of our control.
[ as soon as their fingers zipper together childe squeezes zhongli's hand. he listens, feeling his heart hammer in his chest, swelling with an overabundance of feelings. ] Zhongli. [ he smiles, loving and soft, his other hand coming to his face and cupping his cheek. ] I love you more than I can put to words. [ gives him a kiss, one slow and deliberate, he wants to savor his words, this feeling, and commit it to memory forever. ]
[ He lets Childe kiss him to his heart's content, pressing back against his lips but ultimately ceding control to the Harbinger.
It's only when Childe pulls away finally that he'll stroke his cheek gently with the back of his free hand. ]
We have not talked much about the future. It has never seemed like the right time.
But I would know your fears and your hopes so that I might be able to provide as best I can. This desire for a contract now of all times, surely is not something spontaneous on your part.
...no, we haven't, and maybe we should. I guess I'm just getting increasingly more concerned about the show, because of the abrupt downsizing. I mean, it must not be as popular anymore, so they're mashing us altogether, and if it gets canceled and we're all stuck here or sent back home... then we never really found out if we're from the same version of Teyvat. Like, Scaramouche is from another and I, I just... [ he combs his fingers through his hair. ] I'm worried about what's going to happen to all of us.
…and I’m going to do what I can to find you too. [ even if it means having to traverse the abyss and check out every stray path inside of it. ] I love you, Zhongli Xiansheng. [ brings their joined hands to his lips for a kiss. ] And I have yet to proclaim it to the entire world. [ his lips quirk subtly into a small smile. ]
I do not need you to proclaim it to the world. I do not---
Ah.
[ He was going about this all the wrong way ]
I believe I told you this before - that Tsukiakari told me you were concerned about the future should we be separated. That you were concerned with your future with him. I wish I had known about all of that sooner - even before I was transferred, so that I could have been there to support you.
You smile and put on such a brave face, even when such things must be slowly eating you from the inside. How do I let you know that the words I mean are genuine? How do I allow you to feel these feelings which you have every right to feel instead of trying to soothe me with reassurances?
I love you, too, Ajax. And that includes all parts of you. Your loves, your fears, your insecurities, your strengths. All of it.
[ childe's ears droop. ] I hadn't meant for that to sound disingenuous. [ he reaches for zhongli's cheek, cupping it and smoothing a thumb over it as he gives him another tiny little smile. ] I want to conquer the world, remember, and what better climax to all of that then to tell it how much I love you... although, I suppose as long as you know, then there's no need for it. [ but still, he likes being extra. ]
But I'm sorry I didn't bring any of this up sooner. It's not like I think about it regularly. I did when you had been transferred, because I wasn't sure how I would be able to find you again, and now because of the downsizing I just don't know what could be happening...
[ he brings his other hand to zhongli's face and leans in so that their foreheads are touching. ] I know you do. I never doubted that for a second.
...of course I trust you, Zhongli Xiansheng. [ he hums in response, lips subtly quirking as he pulls back, but only to drop a kiss onto his forehead. ] Alright. [ he brings a hand to the back of his head, threading his fingers through his hair as he tries to angle his head back, so they can share a real kiss. ]
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childeishly) wrote2022-09-08 09:36 am
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But there were definitely only two teams I would really want to be joined with - his and yours. [ he reaches for zhongli’s outfit. ] And speaking of… you’re on Taisho now?
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[ He startles a little when Childe tugs on his clothes, but quickly recovers by placing one hand over his ]
Ah yes. Myself and Doctor.
I suppose they were playing to Bomb's abandonment issues, seeing as he did not take well to Kershaw being moved over to avante.
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…
Will you make a contract with me?
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A contract...?
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[ he simultaneously lifts zhongli’s hand and bows his head, dropping a kiss onto it. ] …this place almost fell apart on us, and because there’s hardly anybody left they’ve combined several unit together. I just… [ he squeezes his hand. ] no matter what happens I love you, Xiansheng, and we’ll eventually get that happily ever after. [ perhaps not the most formal contract, or even a contract at all, but he just felt compelled to say it given the sudden uncertainty of everything. ]
[ he takes his own hand back with a smile, ] How’s that?
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We will. Even if we have to search a thousand worlds for a thousands lifetimes, I will find you again and stay by your side. Even if we are apart, know that you live in my heart and in my memories and that I am thinking of you fondly and the times of when we will once again be together.
You do not need a contract for that.
I do not need to hold you to your word. Nor do I wish to punish you if events spiral out of both of our control.
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It's only when Childe pulls away finally that he'll stroke his cheek gently with the back of his free hand. ]
We have not talked much about the future. It has never seemed like the right time.
But I would know your fears and your hopes so that I might be able to provide as best I can. This desire for a contract now of all times, surely is not something spontaneous on your part.
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He squeezes his fingers again lightly. ]
Even if we are from separate worlds, I will keep my promise. I fully intend to find you again.
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Ah.
[ He was going about this all the wrong way ]
I believe I told you this before - that Tsukiakari told me you were concerned about the future should we be separated. That you were concerned with your future with him. I wish I had known about all of that sooner - even before I was transferred, so that I could have been there to support you.
You smile and put on such a brave face, even when such things must be slowly eating you from the inside. How do I let you know that the words I mean are genuine? How do I allow you to feel these feelings which you have every right to feel instead of trying to soothe me with reassurances?
I love you, too, Ajax. And that includes all parts of you. Your loves, your fears, your insecurities, your strengths. All of it.
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But I'm sorry I didn't bring any of this up sooner. It's not like I think about it regularly. I did when you had been transferred, because I wasn't sure how I would be able to find you again, and now because of the downsizing I just don't know what could be happening...
[ he brings his other hand to zhongli's face and leans in so that their foreheads are touching. ] I know you do. I never doubted that for a second.
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Your trust in this matter is all that I could ever ask for.
So allow me to trust in you as well.
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