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I can't be yours alone. And I can't handle having to balance those sort of expectations. Haruki is important to me too. And there are others I sleep with, that I will keep sleeping with.

But I do want to be yours.

I know. I'm not expecting that. [ since he has other people too. ] ... [ no comment on haruki. he can take a long walk off a short bridge for all childe cares. ] I guess I should ask if you're going to keep on expanding your, ah, [ man, this is awkward. ] sleeping circle.

I don't know.

[ a pause ]

... There is someone I made arrangements with after the last game. Jamil, on Salamander.

But if someone is interesting and I think it could be fine, I'm generally for it.

...mm. I understand. I... I'll think about it then.

Is it a problem for you?

[ he doesn't want to admit that it kind of us, but this isn't just about him. it's about mochi too, and ultimately childe wants him to be happy. ] It's a me thing. Don't worry about it. [ he flashes him his best lopsided smile as he sinks back down to the ground, sitting up against the tree now. ]

[ shifting so he can move onto his lap, arms around his neck ]

I'm glad you were able to meet Tsukiakari again. ...You're different too.

[ his breath hitches as mochi climbs into his lap. ] ...me too. [ he hesitantly puts a hand on mochi's hips. ] I am different, and that's part of the reason I need to think about this. I don't want some flight of fancy. [ as great as a good fuck can be. ] I want real and raw emotion... [ it's the strong bonds he's a sucker for. ]

So if I can't commit you can't either.

[ which makes sense. It's just difficult ]

... It's not like I don't feel anything for you.

I know I'm going to get jealous, and I don't want another explosive blow-out to happen. I don't like fighting... not like that... not with you...

So you did miss me.

Of course I missed you.

I took everything out of your room because I thought you were going to disappear, and I didn't want it all to be lost.

[ ...oh. how dare you hit him right in the feels. ] I guess you saw my little pet project then, huh? [ all the different flowers he was attempting to grow. ]

The plants? I've been taking care of them.

[ childe nods. ] I said I would give you flowers, remember? so I started trying to grow my own.

[ oh. oh ]

... I didn't realize they were for me.

H- Heh. [ he cracks a small smile at that. ] Kind of ruined the surprise for yourself, huh? I couldn't find anything like the Gladiolus, but I brought whatever I could find back, so I could eventually make you a bouquet. I made a promise, and I only make promises I intend to keep to the people that mean the most to me.

Will you give them to me even after what I said last time?

I might, yeah. My feelings haven't changed. I still l- ... like you, and a lot at that. [ he smiles like a dope. ] Will you smile for me when you get them?

... Mm. If they didn't get poisoned while we're locked out, yes.

…oh, right. [ his shoulders sink inward and he sighs, feeling doubly sad, because nothing is going according to plan, …but, then again, that’s nothing new. ]

They will be fine.

[ leaning in and kissing his cheek ]

I’ll be waiting for them.

[ childe removes the hand on his hip, so he can, instead, encircle him, holding him closely. he buries his face in his shoulder and shuts his eyes, enjoying the moment for what it is - nothing but them. ]

[ he's going to stay just like that too, not saying anything for now, but enjoying the moment. And then.

He'll shift and try to reach for one of his tails ]

…can I ask you something? [ his tail flicks at being touched, but Scaramouche can grab it if he likes. ]

[ he is so interested in his tails, but he nods ]

What is it?

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