I don't know. I don't think I'm ever going to be able not to feel like this either. There are days where it's easier and then it comes crashing like this.
I spent all night yesterday feeling like I really wanted someone to just chop my limbs off and have fun with my body. I didn't indulge that thought, before you worry about it. But I did also thought doing that to someone else would have been just as fun.
I'm always going to be jealous seeing you with other people and knowing you have others waiting. But I also don't know what to do about it.
... [ frowns as soon as mochi tells him he just wants to be mutilated and used. ] I'm real glad that you didn't, but I hate that you thought that at all. [ he moves, so that he'll be able to lean back against the head board. ] I can't leave my version of Teyvat, because I have to help her Majesty, the Tsaritsa, but... if we do manage to escape here, then... how about we run away to another version for a little bit? It's not like I haven't already gotten kidnapped twice in a row. How would they know it hasn't been three or four times?
Isn't that going to be just a temporary solution? You'll still have to go back eventually. And I'm not going to abandon Haruki now.
[ leaving another kiss to his cheek - and then his lips ]
I'll get over it. When we're happy, it feels really, really good. I want to focus on that. I'm going to. All the background noise I feel ... every bad thought and voice telling me to expect the worst - I'll try to shut it down.
Because you plan on going to Haruki in the end anything we do is going to be temporary. And I have Tsukiakari too. I just thought this could be a way that we only have each other for a little while. And I would still like you to come back with me... even if it's for a little while. [ he's told him tsukiakari's going to be traveling... so it's not like he's always going to be there. and zhongli... he's not sure what he plans on doing either. everything's up in the air. ] ...but, mm, let's just focus on us for now. [ he flips mochi and pins him down, letting out some of his pheromones. ] I want you to feel nothing but good right now, Mochi. Really really really good.
[ For a little while ... his promise to Haruki was to come back to him at the end of his travels. Until then, he's free to do whatever he wants. And if that includes staying for a little bit with Caeli, when they can both pretend there's nothing complicated awaiting them ...
Part of him really wants to say yes. But part of him feels like it'd drag on the inevitable and only hurt even more.
Fortunately he doesn't have to think it through, because he's being pinned down and the pheromones are already working their magic - making him feel good even without Caeli putting any effort in it ]
I should — I should be the one making you feel good, though ...
I know we're going to figure something out, Mochi, ...it'll take some time, but I have faith in us. [ he leans down to bite him, marking his neck up and down and making him his. ] I love you, Mochi, so much... and I'm going to show you... [ he grabs the hem of his shirt and yanks it over his head, kissing down his chest and then tweaking one of his nipples while he sucks on the other. ]
[ he kisses him roughly. ] Love you too. So much, Mochi, and I hate that you're hurting. I just want you to feel good. I want to make you feel good. Tell me what you want, what you want to do.
[ He kisses him back with just as much intensity, clinging to him like he's trying to make sure he'll never leave ]
Tell me I'm the most beautiful person you've ever laid eyes on. I want — I want you to have eyes for myself and myself only for today.
And I want to shut everything else down. If you keep me on your pheromones than I won't be able to think fully. Just for today. Tomorrow I'll stop running away.
Mochi, [ he kisses his lips, then the corner of his lips, his cheek, just below his ear, and then he whispers, ] youāre the most beautiful person ever, and I love you so much. My Mochi, [ he brings mochiās hand to his collar. ] I want you to leash me tonight. Make you yours like Iām going to make you mine.
[ a dendro tentacle rises up from the floor. ] Iām going to make myself high on pheromones too, but I want you to induce my heat. Turn me into a slut for you and you alone. [ the dendro tentacle slithers over mochi before its flowery tip splits apart and it takes his dick into its āmouthā. ] Cum, Mochi, fill it with your seed, so then I can make your own deliciously noxious pheromones for myself~
[ this is all a very good reward for blowing up like he did, careful caeli he might do it again if that's what he gets for it!! But. It is certainly distracting - the praise is just as great as the attention, and he's rocking his hips into the tentacle, chasing his pleasure like that ]
A--ah, you can - you can do that? Turn my cum in pheromones that will - make you go in heat ...
[ somehow. somehow that thought alone is incredibly exciting. The lines on his body quickly start glowing, and soon enough, he's spilling into that tentacle's mouth ]
I can, but I'm only going to do it if you're good. And, hm~ right now, because I want you to know how much I love you. But if you're good I can show you all sorts of tricks. [ a snort. ] I don't need this to go into heat. You know you're capable of doing so on your own... but this will help... I can get drunk on you, Mochi.
[ as soon as he cums into the flower it pulls back and closes, warping into something more beautiful - something anemo green and electro purple. childe opens his mouth and the tentacle dives in, fucking itself into him as he groans, immediately growing hard. he shudders, precum staining the inside of his pants as his tattoo glows bright enough to see through his shirt. ] Mmfmph, M- Mochi... [ he pulls out, leaving him to drool, his eyes glassy. ]
[ It's such a good sight. He loves it, loves how good it feels to be connected this way, and he immediately reaches for him so he can kiss him - hard and eager and just as needy as he must be feeling ]
[ his kisses him back, needy. ] I want you to fuck me until I'm drunk on your dick. Fuck my face too. Fill me with your cum, Mochi. Every hole. I can even change so you'll have another hole to fuck. I just, I need you. I need you, Mochi. [ he presses him further down into the bed, grinding against him as his ass starts to become slick. ] Do you see, Mochi, I'm ready to be bred.
Let me. I can change back once youāve fucked it full. [ he kisses him again, face burning a bright red as he ooze another puff of pheromones. ] Mochi, Mochi, Mochiā¦ [ he shifts into a female, his chest immediately smothering him as he grinds that much harder into him. ] Donāt make me beg, Mochi, fuck me, please. [ now both of his holes are slicking mochiās front. ]
And, and whereās my leash. Donāt you think such a slutty fox should be leashedā¦ [ he gives him a sharp grin before nipping at his neck again. ]
[ despite how horny they both are right now, he canāt help but feel overwhelmed with love. He looks at Caeli, at how beautiful he is in any form, and itās easy to remember every little bruise on what passes fir a heart is well worth it. He lets out a soft groan at the bite, and then he slaps his ass - keeping his hand there after ]
Thatās right. Look at how wet you are already. Iāll leash you so you wonāt go stuff yourself on anything other than what I give you.
[ and itās so convenient that their boon is telekinesis, because he can get the leash just like that, snapping it on immediately ]
[ he presses himself back into mochiās hand, his own hand rising to twist in the leash as itās fastened to his collar. ] Keep me here, Mochi, on your dick. Iāll warm your cock all day. I already told you I have plenty of holes to fill, so you better stuff them all. [ his hand slides down the leash and to mochiās hand, which he makes tug on it. ] Fuck me.
[ It's so tempting to do just that. Let himself enjoy Caeli all for him, just this day, just this moment. And maybe this really is the cure for his jealousy, because he feels like as long as he can get him all for himself for even just one day, he doesn't care how much he has to share at any other point.
He tugs on his leash, pulling him closer to him so he can drag him onto his lap - his other hand going to caress his back before he brings it to his own cock, aligning it against Childe's cunt. This isn't the first time they do this, but it's just as exciting as it was last time. ]
I love you.
[ he says that so easily, like it's the most natural thing to say. And at that, he finally pushes inside him ]
[ he loops his arms around mochiās neck, pressing closely. ] I love you too. [ he kisses him just as he enters him, so he gasps into his mouth - shuddering as he nearly cums on the spot. theyād only done this once before and he feels so much more sensitive as a women. ] Mochi, Iāmā¦ Iām already close. [ he starts riding him, the pace heās chosen already fast and hard, because heās intent on chasing the orgasm thatās already so terribly close. ] Mark me.
[ He's really not doing much better. With Caeli riding him like that he's pretty much forced to keep the pace, rolling his hips to meet him. He knows he's more sensitive as a woman, and he plans on taking advantage of it - his mouth going to rest against his chest to tease his nipples, while his hands move between his legs, starting to tease his clit.
Caeli asks him to mark him and normally he'd just bite him, but he wants a little more this time. So he infuses him with some of his anemo energy - a thin green light appearing on his neck, glowing just like Mochi's do when he uses his vision or when he's about to come. ]
I — might just keep this on you, mm? Maybe it'll work even better than your collar.
-! [ he gasps as soon as mochi starts teasing his nipples, which immediately stiffen to peaks. he sets a hand on his head, holding him closely as he probably comes pretty close to smothering him. the stimulation to his clit has his hips jumping and his legs trembling... the waves of pleasure crashing down on him in that instant nearly making him cum on the spot. he cries out, moaning mochi's name as he demands more. ]
But I, I like my collar, ...
And how you can leash me whenever you, whenever you like...
But if you want to, to make me like this tonight... [ he's not against it. ] But just one, it's not enough. Keep, keep marking me, Mochi, I want your marks everywhere.
I'm not letting you take off your collar. This is going to be just a little - extra.
[ he's close, too. His own marks glow brightly, making it obvious he's getting there. He won't leave another elemental mark, but he does nibble and bite on his chest, then on his neck and shoulder - leaving little marks across his skin ]
[ caeli comes with a cry as scaramouche nibbles on his chest, neck, and shoulder... his neck, specifically, a sensitive spot. he shudders, riding out his own orgasm as he soaks scaramouche's lap - both his horny tattoo and scaramouche's own mark glowing brightly. ] P- Pull on it, the leash... and tell me... tell me what more you want... [ he continues riding scaramouche once he's got his bearings. ] I want to... I'm going to change back, keep it inside me while you fuck my ass full of your cum too. One down, Mochi, t- two to go...
Promise you won't stop until I'm stuffed and then some.
[ he can't hold on for long, so of course he's going to come as Caeli keeps riding out his own orgasm. He keeps his hold on him, not wanting to let go at all ]
A--ah ... you're really going to let me fill you up properly, mm? I want ... I want that. I want to mark you and claim you.
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I spent all night yesterday feeling like I really wanted someone to just chop my limbs off and have fun with my body. I didn't indulge that thought, before you worry about it. But I did also thought doing that to someone else would have been just as fun.
I'm always going to be jealous seeing you with other people and knowing you have others waiting. But I also don't know what to do about it.
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[ leaving another kiss to his cheek - and then his lips ]
I'll get over it. When we're happy, it feels really, really good. I want to focus on that. I'm going to. All the background noise I feel ... every bad thought and voice telling me to expect the worst - I'll try to shut it down.
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Part of him really wants to say yes. But part of him feels like it'd drag on the inevitable and only hurt even more.
Fortunately he doesn't have to think it through, because he's being pinned down and the pheromones are already working their magic - making him feel good even without Caeli putting any effort in it ]
I should — I should be the one making you feel good, though ...
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I love you — I love you too. So much that it hurts — but I don't want to stop. I won't stop no matter what.
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Tell me I'm the most beautiful person you've ever laid eyes on. I want — I want you to have eyes for myself and myself only for today.
And I want to shut everything else down. If you keep me on your pheromones than I won't be able to think fully. Just for today. Tomorrow I'll stop running away.
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[ a dendro tentacle rises up from the floor. ] Iām going to make myself high on pheromones too, but I want you to induce my heat. Turn me into a slut for you and you alone. [ the dendro tentacle slithers over mochi before its flowery tip splits apart and it takes his dick into its āmouthā. ] Cum, Mochi, fill it with your seed, so then I can make your own deliciously noxious pheromones for myself~
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A--ah, you can - you can do that? Turn my cum in pheromones that will - make you go in heat ...
[ somehow. somehow that thought alone is incredibly exciting. The lines on his body quickly start glowing, and soon enough, he's spilling into that tentacle's mouth ]
Caeli, Caeli—!
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I can, but I'm only going to do it if you're good. And, hm~ right now, because I want you to know how much I love you. But if you're good I can show you all sorts of tricks. [ a snort. ] I don't need this to go into heat. You know you're capable of doing so on your own... but this will help... I can get drunk on you, Mochi.
[ as soon as he cums into the flower it pulls back and closes, warping into something more beautiful - something anemo green and electro purple. childe opens his mouth and the tentacle dives in, fucking itself into him as he groans, immediately growing hard. he shudders, precum staining the inside of his pants as his tattoo glows bright enough to see through his shirt. ] Mmfmph, M- Mochi... [ he pulls out, leaving him to drool, his eyes glassy. ]
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Tell me how you want me.
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[ but he is holding his hips, using them as leverage as he starts grinding against him ]
But if you would like to have one more hole for me to fill, I'll make sure you will be fully satisfied.
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And, and whereās my leash. Donāt you think such a slutty fox should be leashedā¦ [ he gives him a sharp grin before nipping at his neck again. ]
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Thatās right. Look at how wet you are already. Iāll leash you so you wonāt go stuff yourself on anything other than what I give you.
[ and itās so convenient that their boon is telekinesis, because he can get the leash just like that, snapping it on immediately ]
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He tugs on his leash, pulling him closer to him so he can drag him onto his lap - his other hand going to caress his back before he brings it to his own cock, aligning it against Childe's cunt. This isn't the first time they do this, but it's just as exciting as it was last time. ]
I love you.
[ he says that so easily, like it's the most natural thing to say. And at that, he finally pushes inside him ]
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Caeli asks him to mark him and normally he'd just bite him, but he wants a little more this time. So he infuses him with some of his anemo energy - a thin green light appearing on his neck, glowing just like Mochi's do when he uses his vision or when he's about to come. ]
I — might just keep this on you, mm? Maybe it'll work even better than your collar.
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But I, I like my collar, ...
And how you can leash me whenever you, whenever you like...
But if you want to, to make me like this tonight... [ he's not against it. ] But just one, it's not enough. Keep, keep marking me, Mochi, I want your marks everywhere.
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[ he's close, too. His own marks glow brightly, making it obvious he's getting there. He won't leave another elemental mark, but he does nibble and bite on his chest, then on his neck and shoulder - leaving little marks across his skin ]
Feel — so hot and tight around me, Caeli ...
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Promise you won't stop until I'm stuffed and then some.
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A--ah ... you're really going to let me fill you up properly, mm? I want ... I want that. I want to mark you and claim you.
And - from now on, we'll do this once per week.
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