I'm not interested in falling in love with anybody else... I just want you. I know Haruki isn't interested in that kind of thing... and that's the only other person that would really make sense to try that kind of relationships if we're all going to be together, no?
I'm close with a few other people, but... I don't want to complicate things.
Haruki is just trying to protect me too. I think the two of you are probably already feeling something for each other and dancing around it.
[ leaning in to kiss his cheek again, and then resting his forehead against him ]
I'm just saying. I might blow up again, but not as badly as I did before. I don't want to feel like that. And I don't want to make you and Haruki walk on eggshells because of me, either.
...I don't know. Maybe? I'm not sure he wants to talk about it though. It really doesn't seem like he's interested. [ he loops an arm around him to keep him close. ] Mm. I hope I'm helping you to feel like you don't need to worry. I love you, Mochi, and all I want is for you to be happy.
And you make me happy every day. It's just sometimes my bad habits and thoughts catch up to me. But you do make me feel like I'm worthy of being alive.
And I'm really happy you'll come with Haruki and I. He needs you as much as he needs me.
...mm. I get it. I mean, I don't think I can always curb my jealousy. I don't like to share. [ and things are still a bit difficult, but he, like mochi, is trying to do better. he knows that haruki needs mochi, but he doubts he needs him. ] Me too. [ he just needs to be careful. he knows that he's... not right. he doesn't want to break whatever is keeping him alive. ] We just need to get the hell out of here to start.
[ what if he makes it drizzle, but then turns the rain to show... so there's a light dusting of snow raining down on them. he'll spur the growth of some of the nearby plants, electrifying them lightly, so they twinkle. he dips mochi, leaning down to give him a chaste kiss. ] You really like that nickname, mm~?
[ going to spin him around~! ] I'm so glad. [ he hugs him real close. ] Because you make me feel the same. Stupidly happy, that is. [ not disgusting. ]
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I'm close with a few other people, but... I don't want to complicate things.
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[ leaning in to kiss his cheek again, and then resting his forehead against him ]
I'm just saying. I might blow up again, but not as badly as I did before. I don't want to feel like that. And I don't want to make you and Haruki walk on eggshells because of me, either.
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[ he leans in to kiss his lips, gentle ]
And you make me happy every day. It's just sometimes my bad habits and thoughts catch up to me. But you do make me feel like I'm worthy of being alive.
And I'm really happy you'll come with Haruki and I. He needs you as much as he needs me.
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I really do love you. And that's all that matters for now.
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It is. We should dance now, Mochi.
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Oh? [ he's so tempted to ask for a race instead. ] I'd like that.
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We need a little more space if we're going to dance.
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Make me swoon for you, my darling.
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[ and he looks around, giving him another kiss in return ]
This is beautiful.
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How could it not be... with you as the inspiration.
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—You don't have to say it back.
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Well, I like you using my name. But it does feel nice to have a nickname just for you.
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My polar star.
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But he is bringing his arm around him to pull him close ]
... love you.
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It's disgusting.
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