... [ he's not interested in letting someone else look at him and start cutting him apart. but he can't answer right now, because he's seeing things he shouldn't. the abyss... he hates that it's coming back to haunt him. he made it out and IT NEEDS TO STOP. he huffs, smushing his palm straight into his face. ] I'm just heading to my room. I think I need to... lay down...
I don't want to have to rely on another unit and you said this shouldn't last more than a couple of days, right, so... [ and it's a matter of pride. stupid stupid stupid pride. ] I'm seeing things I shouldn't be capable of seeing. It must be another effect of the game. [ shuts his eyes. ] ...this is infinitely worse than the physical pain. It's interfering with everything. I can't think straight.
I said so but if you're in severe pain waiting it out is ridiculous. Though I understand not wanting to rely on other Units. The less favor you owe the better.
Can you turn into an animal that doesn't have, well. Limbs that would be fused to your chest?
As for your condition. I experience something similar more or less regularly and Alexander had to deal with it recently as well. Is there something that triggers those vision in particular? A smell, a sound, things like that.
...exactly. [ huffs, and then starts heaving a moment later as he swears he sees one the enormous abyssmal beasts that had threatened to kill him when he had thought himself lost. his heart starts hammering in his chest and for a moment it's all he can hear. something like that won't kill him. he's strong now, and still getting stronger. ] ...h- hah, and this isn't exactly something I may not be capable of fixing on my own. It's not like I'm full of cement.
...
I could try it. [ he's going to turn into a big fucken snake, so five will hear him hitting the floor with a thud. the phone also hits the floor... and then childe is just going to start freaking out, because he might not have arms anymore but he's bent and fused and just thrashing around because WHY!!! ]
[ sorry, five, he can't hear you above the panic. ]
I turned into a snake! since snakes don't have arms, but it didn't work. It didn't work and now my face is connected to my body and I can't move right and fuck it hurts. What if I change back and I've made it worse?! [ he's still thrashing about like, ok, maybe NOW he can just rip himself apart and be fine. fine... er. ]
[ WHAT DO YOU MEAN NOW HIS FACE IS CONNECTED TO HIS BODY WHAT KIND OF EFFECT IS THAT!!! THAT'S FUCKED UP!!! ]
No that wouldn't make sense, just go ahead and change back Mora. If it got worse then I can draft a contract to take away your sense of pain for a few days.
N- No! I'm not risking that! I can deal with being a snake ball and not some human pretzal-! [ no he can't he hates this. ] W- What?! You can do that?! Make a contract with me then! take the pain away so I can just... severe the connection myself!!
I can sign like this! I'm still me. It's not like I'm not me, Five. Just... my tail, I can hold the pen with my tail. I don't need to be human! [ childe snatches his phone up and starts meandering back into his room. ] You have to come to Wild City then. Just sneak in. I can sneak you in. [ no... he can't. he's freaking out and being loud af, so there's no way he could get him in without making a big fucken stink about it. ]
[ he goes silent for a few minutes after that, hissing at... something? no, it's nothing, but he seems agitated and begins snapping at the air, mumbling in another language under his breath. ]
[ Can he even sneak into Wild City, that seems disrespectful toward Luther and the rest of the team, regardless of whether he's being asked to or not. But eventually ]
I'm not sneaking into the dorm. But I'll come to the balcony. Meet me there.
[ He should never have shown any amount of care it never goes well. Why did he. He should know better. He knows better. But here he is turning off the call and heading out ]
[ he's delirious and about half a second from begging... but five relents and agrees to meet him on the balcony. he's got to calm his shit enough to attempt to get there without making a scene, but that's easier said than done. he's going to be a little... late, but eventually he squirms his way out there. ]
[ childe is currently a big. fucken. snake. LIKE HUGE. and he's curled in on himself, scales fused together around his head, neck, and the start of his long ass body. his fatui mask is still sitting on the side of his head, but it's cracked in a number of places and severely damaged. it looks like it could fall apart any moment. ]
What part of "I think it's best Luther doesn't see me" was lost on you? Keep it quiet and don't call my name out loud.
Before I actually give you the contract to sign. Effects like that don't come for free and you will have to pay a price of equal worth in order to see the effects. If you break the contract you'll suffer consequences for it.
And I will not allow you to rip yourself open without someone to heal you in the room, debt or not.
...sensei then. [ ofc. ] I'm no stranger to contracts. [ his not!boyfriend is the god of contracts. ] What are you looking for then, and what kind of consequences?
You can help me, no? I can get a med kit. I'm sure we have one in the bathroom.
Consequences that would make what you are receiving in exchange worth it.
[ He's going to just lay down the piece of paper he wrote down so Childe can read it. It completely takes away his sense of pain in exchange for only speaking truth. If he lies at any point, the contract is broken and pain will instead be felt twice over. The contract does also have a clause that Childe can't inflict any harm onto himself without another person being in the room. Otherwise still double pain. ]
You being a cagey bastard was the only thing worthwhile I could think of given our last encounter. But it does talk about lies. Hiding or deflecting, or half-truths, are fine.
And I am not coming inside the dorm and helping you cut yourself open.
[ this. bitch. he... he has to laugh. he has to fucken laugh at the contract, because ofc it would involving his being a cagey bastard. ] Did you put that clause in there on purpose? to keep me from hurting myself, ..? And here I thought you didn't care, sensei. [ he flicks his tail in five's direction. ]
...so I'm going to have to see if I can't drag Zhongli Xiansheng to Taisho then? Will you do it there? [ as if he thinks he can convince zhongli to participate in this madness. he can't imagine he'll be pleased to learn he's signed this kind of contact, assuming he decides to agree. ]
[ That's good because unlike Mora he seems reasonable. ]
If you rip your arm off you'll need actual medical care and I only know basic first aid Mora, I'm not going to be able to stitch you up again. Get a SensitIV.
I don't plan on ripping it off...! Just... severing the connection it's made between me and myself. I'll just need a few stitches. [ probably. ] But the entire reason I'm doing this is to avoid sensitIV. [ even though he shouldn't, since siv and wc are extremely close, but he just doesn't want to have to rely on them. ]
Let me see it ag- [ his gazes becomes distant all of a sudden and he wriggles backward and away from five, pupils dilating as he stares at something that's most definitely *not* there. like before he hisses, trying to scare whatever it is away, but it doesn't seem to be working. ]
[ childe edges back ward and coils part of himself around a potted plant... squeezing its base until it bursts. dirt explodes all over him, the plant inside toppling over and bonking his head. he freaks immediately and lashes out, almost biting five. ]
[ the dreary scenery around him starts to fade though, bringing him back to the lush garden on wild city's balcony. he blinks, flushed and tiny little snake heart thrumming in his chest. his head is pounding and another crack appears in his fatui mask. ] ...do you have a pen?
[ there should be no reason for his mask to crack any further, it didn't hit anything. But Mora is clearly distressed so it seems to react to his emotion.
For now, he keeps that to himself and hands him the pen ]
If Zhongli agrees to it then you may come to Taisho and I can see what we can do about stitching you up.
For now, this should provide you some relief. Go rest after, Mora.
Wait, no - that's not why he's here. He's here because Childe has disappeared again even though he knows he starts hallucinating whenever he gets too far away. ]
[ childe is a giant snake ball made of anxiety that's currently having a panic attack, because in attempt to make things better he made things worse. WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT. as soon as zhongli joins them on the balcony he perks up... or at least he tries to. ] Xiansheng! [ his entire body trembles, because he can't really lift his head, but, hey, he tried. ] Five is here to help. I asked him to drop by [ literally. ] so we can make a contract. If the pain goes away then I can fix this. I don't need anybody elses help. [ he says, getting somebody elses help. shhhh, now's not the time for brains. ]
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childeishly) wrote2021-02-25 12:10 pm
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You need someone to numb the pain, someone to cut you open, and someone to heal it. This isn't something you can do on your own Mora.
You already sound fatigued just by — whatever it is you're doing right now.
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Is there a reason you don't want to do what's logically the obvious smart thing to do here and get yourself looked by someone who can help?
You were quiet for a while there.
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I said so but if you're in severe pain waiting it out is ridiculous. Though I understand not wanting to rely on other Units. The less favor you owe the better.
Can you turn into an animal that doesn't have, well. Limbs that would be fused to your chest?
As for your condition. I experience something similar more or less regularly and Alexander had to deal with it recently as well. Is there something that triggers those vision in particular? A smell, a sound, things like that.
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I could try it. [ he's going to turn into a big fucken snake, so five will hear him hitting the floor with a thud. the phone also hits the floor... and then childe is just going to start freaking out, because he might not have arms anymore but he's bent and fused and just thrashing around because WHY!!! ]
[ sorry, five, he can't hear you above the panic. ]
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[ HE HAS NO IDEA WHAT'S GOING ON ]
Jesus maybe I should send a text to one of your unitmates...
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No that wouldn't make sense, just go ahead and change back Mora. If it got worse then I can draft a contract to take away your sense of pain for a few days.
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Really starting to feel like you're not exactly lucid right now.
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[ he goes silent for a few minutes after that, hissing at... something? no, it's nothing, but he seems agitated and begins snapping at the air, mumbling in another language under his breath. ]
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I'm not sneaking into the dorm. But I'll come to the balcony. Meet me there.
[ He should never have shown any amount of care it never goes well. Why did he. He should know better. He knows better. But here he is turning off the call and heading out ]
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[ childe is currently a big. fucken. snake. LIKE HUGE. and he's curled in on himself, scales fused together around his head, neck, and the start of his long ass body. his fatui mask is still sitting on the side of his head, but it's cracked in a number of places and severely damaged. it looks like it could fall apart any moment. ]
Five-!
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Before I actually give you the contract to sign. Effects like that don't come for free and you will have to pay a price of equal worth in order to see the effects. If you break the contract you'll suffer consequences for it.
And I will not allow you to rip yourself open without someone to heal you in the room, debt or not.
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You can help me, no? I can get a med kit. I'm sure we have one in the bathroom.
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[ He's going to just lay down the piece of paper he wrote down so Childe can read it. It completely takes away his sense of pain in exchange for only speaking truth. If he lies at any point, the contract is broken and pain will instead be felt twice over. The contract does also have a clause that Childe can't inflict any harm onto himself without another person being in the room. Otherwise still double pain. ]
You being a cagey bastard was the only thing worthwhile I could think of given our last encounter. But it does talk about lies. Hiding or deflecting, or half-truths, are fine.
And I am not coming inside the dorm and helping you cut yourself open.
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...so I'm going to have to see if I can't drag Zhongli Xiansheng to Taisho then? Will you do it there? [ as if he thinks he can convince zhongli to participate in this madness. he can't imagine he'll be pleased to learn he's signed this kind of contact, assuming he decides to agree. ]
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[ That's good because unlike Mora he seems reasonable. ]
If you rip your arm off you'll need actual medical care and I only know basic first aid Mora, I'm not going to be able to stitch you up again. Get a SensitIV.
But yes, I'll be in Taisho.
Now. Will you sign the contract or not?
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Let me see it ag- [ his gazes becomes distant all of a sudden and he wriggles backward and away from five, pupils dilating as he stares at something that's most definitely *not* there. like before he hisses, trying to scare whatever it is away, but it doesn't seem to be working. ]
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It's not real, Mora. Whatever you're seeing now is not truly there.
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[ the dreary scenery around him starts to fade though, bringing him back to the lush garden on wild city's balcony. he blinks, flushed and tiny little snake heart thrumming in his chest. his head is pounding and another crack appears in his fatui mask. ] ...do you have a pen?
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For now, he keeps that to himself and hands him the pen ]
If Zhongli agrees to it then you may come to Taisho and I can see what we can do about stitching you up.
For now, this should provide you some relief. Go rest after, Mora.
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Wait, no - that's not why he's here. He's here because Childe has disappeared again even though he knows he starts hallucinating whenever he gets too far away. ]
Caeli. Where are---!?
[ Oh, now Childe is a giant snake. Lovely.
And is that--- ]
Valour?
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devilgod of contracts. ][ childe is a giant snake ball made of anxiety that's currently having a panic attack, because in attempt to make things better he made things worse. WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT. as soon as zhongli joins them on the balcony he perks up... or at least he tries to. ] Xiansheng! [ his entire body trembles, because he can't really lift his head, but, hey, he tried. ] Five is here to help. I asked him to drop by [ literally. ] so we can make a contract. If the pain goes away then I can fix this. I don't need anybody elses help. [ he says, getting somebody elses help. shhhh, now's not the time for brains. ]
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