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ᥴᖾɩꙆᑯᥱ | Tartaglịa ([personal profile] childeishly) wrote2021-02-25 12:10 pm
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-19 05:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, that's one way of putting it.

But... it also feels like a lack of self-worth, too, I guess? That is what has me worried the most. They want to give and give, but none of their connections want them to be the one to always take the bullet. That's hard on those important to them, too.

I want them to love themselves more because a lot of people care about them, including the rest of their team.

Hurricane and Dva are also very... passionate. Logic doesn't guide them like Zhongli-sensei and Ali. How do I deal with something like that? When we were in the ghost room, it felt so hard-worked into them.

On one hand, I found their courage and instant determination to protect at all costs admirable. ... On the other hand, it was a ghost, what did they think not hiding would do? They drew their weapons like it was something they could fight against, but...

We caused Tsukasa a lot of heartache, and Venti and Rye got killed, too. I just wonder if we could have all gotten out alive if we scattered and hid instead of just being out in the open.

I know they don't regret it one bit, though.
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-19 05:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he considers ] I guess I don't know much about Heart Weapons, then.

...That's true. [ Concerning them not being responsible. but he doesn't really like the answer of letting them do something "stupid." ]

Moral support? Hmm... I guess. I can't just abandon them to their fate because they did something illogical. They're important to me. What if they were right and needed help? What if I was able to notice something that would get them to change their minds?

Are you saying I should leave them to do their own if I don't agree with their decisions?
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-19 06:14 pm (UTC)(link)
[ totally not amused. ] Oh, okay, so you would let one of your closer friends on another team "be stupid" if you were stuck together in this situation? And you wouldn't feel like shit about it afterwards?

Of course we are. This isn't about blame.

Also, they're not stupid! They just have learned to go about handling situations differently.

[ annoyed. ] No, but I don't want everyone around me dying, either. I'm trying to understand where they are coming from.
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-19 06:40 pm (UTC)(link)
... [ damn that's logical. he's got nothing to counter with so he just flops back in the bed miserably and sighs. ] Yeah, you're right.

[ He doesn't like it any better, though. ] So I can't do anything for them.
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-19 06:51 pm (UTC)(link)
... Are these games fair in their rules? Do the hosts always follow them?
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-19 09:21 pm (UTC)(link)
...Got it. I'll just have to figure out how to cope with it that's least painful for everyone else, too.
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-19 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
... Really? I mean, you've said it before, but... I'm not so amnesic that I would assume you serious beyond a nice gesture being offered.
Edited (wtf English I speak it ) 2021-09-19 21:34 (UTC)
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-19 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Aha, you sure are a sucker for punishment. I accept and will wait for the time to find out.
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-20 12:37 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks for being there.
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-20 12:48 am (UTC)(link)
You bet. My door's always open if you need a place and don't know where to go. Sorry for kitnapping you in the first place. [ kit because you are a fox. ]

Honesty about the realities is needed. I don't need to be told it's okay or not my fault or whatever. I don't need snuggles and cuddles and stuff. [ not that he doesn't like them. but he doesn't need them, and they won't help survive the next game. ]
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-20 02:25 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I believe it... but I'm not sure I'm ready for it, I don't think. Maybe soon.

Affection is great, everyone in HSS is cozy with each other, but when it's affection in response to things like dying in a game... I don't feel anything. It seems better or on others for now.

It'll hit eventually, I guess.
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Re: day 400, late evening

[personal profile] skyshard 2021-09-20 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah you're right.

[ Fire silent and send like that's the end of it, but Aether sits up suddenly on the bed now. ] Actually, I'm going to go out, I don't think I can just relax here right now, and I don't want to be uptight around the others in the soft room.

[ Putting his socks and shoes back on. ] Need anything while I'm out?

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