childeishly | 🐳 imeeji; inbox 2.

[ smiles, trying to grab onto him, so he can give him another couple of kisses, but then he's waking up... in a sweat, and feeling like shit. he does feel a bit better, but... damnit. ]

[ he tries to make himself a little bit more presentable, but he doubts scara cares too much, so he goes to answer the door. his hair is a mess and his clothes are rumpled. ]

Hey Kuniku.

[ he'll take his hand and then just tug him inside, to his room ]

Hello little fox. Fancy seeing you awake at this hour.

[ he lets himself be dragged. ] I wonder why. [ a tired laugh. ] Cabin?

... Do you want to? I wanted to stay in your normal room, or go to the beach. Somewhere not in the snow.

[ normal room is also snow themed, lol. ] ...ah, yeah, let's... go to the beach. [ maybe he can take a dip. cool off. ]

[ I FORGOT HE'S A SNOW FOX. you and your snow, Childe!!! But he seems to prefer the beach as well, so he'll head for that room ]

Do you want to talk about that dream?

[ was a snow fox! so his stayed a snowy mountain!!! and, lol, he luv the snow!!! ]

What is there to talk about? [ follows. ]

I don't know. You tell me.

I didn't know your family life was frustrating for you. That you were looked at as weak.

[ he breaks his stride, not that scaramouche can see, since he's in front, but he recovers and continues to follow... doubling his pace to grab a hold of the knob before he can to hold it shut. ] It wasn't always frustrating, but... bodily I was weak. I couldn't do what my father wanted of me, likely expected of me, despite... wanting to... trying to...

... And then you fell into the abyss.

And then I fell into the abyss.

Do you regret it? It did make you stronger.

No, because I don’t regret leaving in the first place, … [ he finally pushes the door open so they can step out into the beach. ] I would have gotten stronger one way or another, …the abyss merely decided to reach out and help, first. [ since he eventually got a vision too. ]

Mm. I wouldn't have met you if you hadn't gotten stronger, so I'm not complaining.

He’s the reason I ‘joined’ the Fatui too. After I came back I was different, no longer was I shy, timid, weak, and helpless. I was a maelstrom of chaotic energy that couldn’t be contained and I craved nothing but fights and the adrenaline rush that came with them. I was a problem. And then I became their problem.

He discarded you like worthless dross. How very parent like of him.

I don’t know if I would go that far, Kunikuzushi… I picked fights, got into trouble, made things hard for everybody. Not exactly intentionally. It just happened. No matter where I went things just… happened. It’s like a little black rain cloud persistently hung overhead, and it just spelled disaster for anybody that happened to get caught under it with me. He thought he was helping… [ he sighs, going to the shore to take a seat. ] It’s complicated, always was, always is, and… always will be. I try not to think about it, but all I know is I don’t want the same for my younger siblings. I want them to enjoy the time they have when things are innocent and the world is still a nice place. They’ll realize soon enough that everything’s terrible… but I want them to linger in the time before that for as long as humanly possible and I’ll do whatever it takes to make that happen.

He wanted to send you away. He didn't want to help you. You're delusional if you think otherwise.

I don’t necessarily think he wanted to help me either, but… [ he gives a sigh, grabbing scara’s arm and yanking him into his lap. ] It doesn’t matter anymore. [ he snakes his arms around him, holding him tightly. ] …what’s done is done. You don’t need to get upset for me.

Like I said his stupidity is the reason I met your dumb ass. I'm not upset.

[ he is upset and it shows ]

It bothers you though, doesn't it? Or you wouldn't have nightmares. Humans ... they're truly awful.

... [ he can tell that he's upset. ] It bothers you too. And I regularly have nightmares about a lot of different things. It's not just humans. Everything and everybody's got the capacity to be awful.

Fair enough. We're both awful as well aren't we? But at least you wouldn't abandon family.

I'm certainly not a good person. Not every family's worth sticking around for... [ holds scaramouche a bit tighter. ] And my family consists of more than just my father. [ ... ] I'm not going to abandon you, by the way...

Your mother was nice. Your younger siblings too.

[ but the rest, he didn't like. He doesn't comment on that last part - he wants to believe Childe, and does, mostly. But of course there's always fear ]

I'll have to introduce you sometime. [ ... ] And you know I'm working with sensei and Emet-Selch to... you know, take care of my situation, so we may not necessarily have to worry about it being a problem.

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