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And how would I do that?

Spend today with me.

… okay. I can do that.

[ going right back to hiding but he’s reaching for Caeli’s hand so he can hold it ]

[ keeps a hand on his back, but he offers him the other hand. ] I'm glad you don't want to break up with me, Mochi...

You’re not the one who messed up.

[ and since Caeli said to tell him no matter what … ]

But a 9.8, just below me, I will never accept it. It should have been a 9 at best.

And I’m easily 100.

But you're not just a 10. I said I wouldn't give anybody else a 10 because that's considered perfect, and 10s are reserved for the people I admire most. [ aka love. ] But you are easily a 100. I didn't know a silly number would upset you so much. But you're on a scale like no other, Mochi.

When there’s so little of a gap, it feels like I’m being chased and I’ll get dethroned soon enough. That’s why it also bothered me that he scored you so high. It felt like he was saying you’re falling in love and it’ll be a 10. Then he said you kiss him and call him beautiful, and between that and what’s going on with Haruki I couldn’t handle it.

But it’s not like I want you to stop seeing him … I just wanted him to be a 9.

Mochi, nobody is going to dethrone you. [ he takes his hand and brings it to his lips, kissing the riptide mark. ] I may like and care about some of the other people here… but nobody compares to you and I’m sorry if I made it seem like he’s right there.

[ he leans back, so he can take mochi’s chin in hand and give him a kiss. ]

It's not like you did. It's just a number.

[ he was the one who attached a specific significance to that number, and he knows that. He just also has no idea how to deal with his feelings. He does lean in to kiss him back, on the cheek - and this time he's not going back into hiding ]

Logically my brain knows you're not going to abandon me. It's the rest that's the problem.

Edited 2023-07-11 13:59 (UTC)

...are you going to be alright? We both have some things we need to work on, but there's no removing the jealousy completely. I know this, because I often find myself feeling jealous of the others you give your attention to. I try to just bury those feelings, which I know is unhealthy... but I don't know what else to do either...

I don't know. I don't think I'm ever going to be able not to feel like this either. There are days where it's easier and then it comes crashing like this.

I spent all night yesterday feeling like I really wanted someone to just chop my limbs off and have fun with my body. I didn't indulge that thought, before you worry about it. But I did also thought doing that to someone else would have been just as fun.

I'm always going to be jealous seeing you with other people and knowing you have others waiting. But I also don't know what to do about it.

... [ frowns as soon as mochi tells him he just wants to be mutilated and used. ] I'm real glad that you didn't, but I hate that you thought that at all. [ he moves, so that he'll be able to lean back against the head board. ] I can't leave my version of Teyvat, because I have to help her Majesty, the Tsaritsa, but... if we do manage to escape here, then... how about we run away to another version for a little bit? It's not like I haven't already gotten kidnapped twice in a row. How would they know it hasn't been three or four times?

Isn't that going to be just a temporary solution? You'll still have to go back eventually. And I'm not going to abandon Haruki now.

[ leaving another kiss to his cheek - and then his lips ]

I'll get over it. When we're happy, it feels really, really good. I want to focus on that. I'm going to. All the background noise I feel ... every bad thought and voice telling me to expect the worst - I'll try to shut it down.

Because you plan on going to Haruki in the end anything we do is going to be temporary. And I have Tsukiakari too. I just thought this could be a way that we only have each other for a little while. And I would still like you to come back with me... even if it's for a little while. [ he's told him tsukiakari's going to be traveling... so it's not like he's always going to be there. and zhongli... he's not sure what he plans on doing either. everything's up in the air. ] ...but, mm, let's just focus on us for now. [ he flips mochi and pins him down, letting out some of his pheromones. ] I want you to feel nothing but good right now, Mochi. Really really really good.

[ For a little while ... his promise to Haruki was to come back to him at the end of his travels. Until then, he's free to do whatever he wants. And if that includes staying for a little bit with Caeli, when they can both pretend there's nothing complicated awaiting them ...

Part of him really wants to say yes. But part of him feels like it'd drag on the inevitable and only hurt even more.

Fortunately he doesn't have to think it through, because he's being pinned down and the pheromones are already working their magic - making him feel good even without Caeli putting any effort in it ]

I should — I should be the one making you feel good, though ...

I know we're going to figure something out, Mochi, ...it'll take some time, but I have faith in us. [ he leans down to bite him, marking his neck up and down and making him his. ] I love you, Mochi, so much... and I'm going to show you... [ he grabs the hem of his shirt and yanks it over his head, kissing down his chest and then tweaking one of his nipples while he sucks on the other. ]

[ he brings his hand over his head, letting out a soft moan as Caeli starts kissing his chest and teasing his nipples like that ]

I love you — I love you too. So much that it hurts — but I don't want to stop. I won't stop no matter what.

[ he kisses him roughly. ] Love you too. So much, Mochi, and I hate that you're hurting. I just want you to feel good. I want to make you feel good. Tell me what you want, what you want to do.

[ He kisses him back with just as much intensity, clinging to him like he's trying to make sure he'll never leave ]

Tell me I'm the most beautiful person you've ever laid eyes on. I want — I want you to have eyes for myself and myself only for today.

And I want to shut everything else down. If you keep me on your pheromones than I won't be able to think fully. Just for today. Tomorrow I'll stop running away.

Mochi, [ he kisses his lips, then the corner of his lips, his cheek, just below his ear, and then he whispers, ] you’re the most beautiful person ever, and I love you so much. My Mochi, [ he brings mochi’s hand to his collar. ] I want you to leash me tonight. Make you yours like I’m going to make you mine.

[ a dendro tentacle rises up from the floor. ] I’m going to make myself high on pheromones too, but I want you to induce my heat. Turn me into a slut for you and you alone. [ the dendro tentacle slithers over mochi before its flowery tip splits apart and it takes his dick into its ‘mouth’. ] Cum, Mochi, fill it with your seed, so then I can make your own deliciously noxious pheromones for myself~

[ this is all a very good reward for blowing up like he did, careful caeli he might do it again if that's what he gets for it!! But. It is certainly distracting - the praise is just as great as the attention, and he's rocking his hips into the tentacle, chasing his pleasure like that ]

A--ah, you can - you can do that? Turn my cum in pheromones that will - make you go in heat ...

[ somehow. somehow that thought alone is incredibly exciting. The lines on his body quickly start glowing, and soon enough, he's spilling into that tentacle's mouth ]

Caeli, Caeli—!

[ he's going to nip that at the bud. ]

I can, but I'm only going to do it if you're good. And, hm~ right now, because I want you to know how much I love you. But if you're good I can show you all sorts of tricks. [ a snort. ] I don't need this to go into heat. You know you're capable of doing so on your own... but this will help... I can get drunk on you, Mochi.

[ as soon as he cums into the flower it pulls back and closes, warping into something more beautiful - something anemo green and electro purple. childe opens his mouth and the tentacle dives in, fucking itself into him as he groans, immediately growing hard. he shudders, precum staining the inside of his pants as his tattoo glows bright enough to see through his shirt. ] Mmfmph, M- Mochi... [ he pulls out, leaving him to drool, his eyes glassy. ]

[ It's such a good sight. He loves it, loves how good it feels to be connected this way, and he immediately reaches for him so he can kiss him - hard and eager and just as needy as he must be feeling ]

Tell me how you want me.

[ his kisses him back, needy. ] I want you to fuck me until I'm drunk on your dick. Fuck my face too. Fill me with your cum, Mochi. Every hole. I can even change so you'll have another hole to fuck. I just, I need you. I need you, Mochi. [ he presses him further down into the bed, grinding against him as his ass starts to become slick. ] Do you see, Mochi, I'm ready to be bred.

You don't need to change a thing to appease me. You are so beautiful like this already ...

[ but he is holding his hips, using them as leverage as he starts grinding against him ]

But if you would like to have one more hole for me to fill, I'll make sure you will be fully satisfied.

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