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I was going to tell you after dancing, but if you're so nervous about it I can just start now.

Might as well just tell me now.

... This really isn't the type of mood I was going for.

I just wanted to say I'm not feeling as insecure lately. That I've been feeling good about things. And us.

About things with Haruki too.

I know you're jealous and I am too. But I know you love me and that's all I care about. So I won't get so mad and scared just because I can't tie you down to myself only.

A conversation like this usually doesn't end well... but maybe that's on me. [ for feeling a little insecure. he's not sure why... but he doesn't want to lose mochi, and with everybody leaving lately he's not sure what can and will happen to them. ] But that's good-! [ he does perk up a little, even going as far as to smile. ] About everything then.

...h- heh. We are more alike than we like to believe. [ ...??? ] But you can? You're all I have. Haruki and I aren't like us.

But if you did become like us, then ... that's fine.

If you meet others, if you sleep with them, or even fall in love, then I'll learn to accept it.

I can't promise I will always be good about it. But I know you love me.

I'm not interested in falling in love with anybody else... I just want you. I know Haruki isn't interested in that kind of thing... and that's the only other person that would really make sense to try that kind of relationships if we're all going to be together, no?

I'm close with a few other people, but... I don't want to complicate things.

Haruki is just trying to protect me too. I think the two of you are probably already feeling something for each other and dancing around it.

[ leaning in to kiss his cheek again, and then resting his forehead against him ]

I'm just saying. I might blow up again, but not as badly as I did before. I don't want to feel like that. And I don't want to make you and Haruki walk on eggshells because of me, either.

...I don't know. Maybe? I'm not sure he wants to talk about it though. It really doesn't seem like he's interested. [ he loops an arm around him to keep him close. ] Mm. I hope I'm helping you to feel like you don't need to worry. I love you, Mochi, and all I want is for you to be happy.

You do.

[ he leans in to kiss his lips, gentle ]

And you make me happy every day. It's just sometimes my bad habits and thoughts catch up to me. But you do make me feel like I'm worthy of being alive.

And I'm really happy you'll come with Haruki and I. He needs you as much as he needs me.

...mm. I get it. I mean, I don't think I can always curb my jealousy. I don't like to share. [ and things are still a bit difficult, but he, like mochi, is trying to do better. he knows that haruki needs mochi, but he doubts he needs him. ] Me too. [ he just needs to be careful. he knows that he's... not right. he doesn't want to break whatever is keeping him alive. ] We just need to get the hell out of here to start.

We will. And once we are together we'll figure everything else out.

I really do love you. And that's all that matters for now.

We can do it together.

It is. We should dance now, Mochi.

Mmm... I wonder if you'll be able to keep up with me? But after this, I wanted to take you out to fly.

I know how to dance, Mochi. Maybe I'll even teach you something new.

Oh? [ he's so tempted to ask for a race instead. ] I'd like that.

[ grabbing his hand and pulling him close, and then he's just flying them both off of the bed, so they can get to the roof ]

We need a little more space if we're going to dance.

[ he grips his hand hard as he's whisked to the roof. ] Should I set the mood?

Yes.

Make me swoon for you, my darling.

[ what if he makes it drizzle, but then turns the rain to show... so there's a light dusting of snow raining down on them. he'll spur the growth of some of the nearby plants, electrifying them lightly, so they twinkle. he dips mochi, leaning down to give him a chaste kiss. ] You really like that nickname, mm~?

Is it that surprising? ...It's stupid and mundane, but I like it.

[ and he looks around, giving him another kiss in return ]

This is beautiful.

...it does have a nice ring to it. [ hums, ] Darling.

How could it not be... with you as the inspiration.

[ it's one thing if he says it, it's another if it's caeli carling him darling ]

—You don't have to say it back.

I thought you wanted me to. And if it gets this sort of reaction out of you, then how do you expect me to resist?

[ hiding his face against his shoulder ]

...

Well, I like you using my name. But it does feel nice to have a nickname just for you.

I think I have one for you.

My polar star.

[ THAT'S EVEN WORSE!! HE'S NOT COMING OUT OF HIDING.

But he is bringing his arm around him to pull him close ]

... love you.

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