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[ he'll just tug him closer and then kiss the top of his head ]

I won't push it if you don't want to talk about it. But if you want, well. I'll listen.

Not necessarily now.

[ he withers into five's lap and sighs. a few minutes go by and he's just silent, trying to decide if he even wants to talk about it, because it was humiliating. he gets that everybody was affected by this, that, and the other thing... but now that he's sobered up and no longer affected by fairy magic... he wishes he could just forget it all... ]

I was paraded around the room like a dog, a literal dog, ...given ears and a tail and... a new name... I had the servants crown so all I wanted to do was please those wearing the crowns, so I let them fuck me.

[ It's odd to see Childe so defeated. And it immediately makes him furious. It's a feeling he didn't expect and that he's not sure how to handle - or if he even understands it at all. And he knows he doesn't have the emotional competence to handle this conversation, either, but what is he supposed to do?

Childe is upset and he, well. Just doesn't like to see that. Things were so much easier with Delores. ]

. . . so you were humiliated in front of everyone.

...I don’t think the other group of people noticed, since they had started an orgy of their own, but I... don’t know. It’s the fact that it happened at all, and that I didn’t care and eagerly went along with it, because I thought it was my place and pleasing these people seemed to be all I cared about. [ digs his nails into five’s front. ] I hate it. I hate thinking about it. I’m not weak. I... something like that shouldn’t have happened...

You're right that it shouldn't have happened.

But you didn't eagerly go along with it, Harbinger. You weren't yourself and your mind was clouded, you said it yourself.

That doesn't make you weak. It makes you like everyone else here. If this happened to me, would you be boiling with rage over it or would you call me weak?

I would be boiling with rage on your behalf, but... no... I wouldn't be calling you weak. I just wish I could forget it all, but it's going to haunt me like a nightmare.

If it gives you any comfort I'm also boiling with rage on your behalf. I understand those people were likely as affected as you, but still.

[ but this isn't about him and he needs to provide some emotional comfort, otherwise why is he even here to start with. He'll keep stroking his back gently, keeping him there like he can shield him from any of this ]

You're not weak. And you're not a dog, or a servant. I realize nothing I tell you will make you feel better but if there is anything that would keep your mind off of it, well. I'll do that.

...you made me breakfast and you’re here. I think that’s a good start. [ drags five into a chaste kiss. ] Let me try this sandwich of yours. It looks monstrous. [ he gives him another kiss, happy to have five nearby. ] In a good way, of course.

[ he's catching feelings. How come every day he spends with this guy it feels more and more dangerous, and not because he already said he'd murder anyone who tried to take him away? ]

I don't take responsibility for it if you don't like it. I'll just eat it instead.

Hah. I’m not going to let you eat my sandwich. [ a chuckle as he reaches for it, lounging back to take a bit. ] Mm~ it’s not bad. Sweet and salty~ kind of like you. [ brushes his lips over five’s cheek. ] Do you want a bite? I’m sure you didn’t eat this morning.

[ there is a very long pause at that ]

...

I didn't, no. I wanted to eat with you.

...

[ ohno, that's cute. he sets the sandwich aside to grab five into another kiss. what if we make out instead of eating? ]

[ well he won't turn out makeouts. There's a surprised noise when he pulls him into the kiss but he returns it immediately, his hand moving to the back of his neck like he can pull him any closer ]

I hope you don't mind if I monopolize all of your time for today, sensei. Maybe after breakfast we can just... go for a walk...

Oh I'll have to clear my very busy schedule of doing absolutely nothing worthwhile at all.

But for you, I'll manage.

You better manage. I'm absolutely worth it, sensei.

[ he's going to quickly cram the rest of the sandwich into his mouth, which proves to be a bad idea, because it's peanut butter and marshmallow and it's incredibly hard to choke down... BUT AT LEAST HE'S GOT THE COFFEE. ]

You can have the eggs, sensei, hurry and eat them, so I can get dressed and we can go.

[ he's actually cracking a small smile, both at Childe's eagerness and at the fact that, well. he actually ate it all. So he'll reach for the eggs and start eating ]

And where are we going to walk to?

I didn't really have anything specific in mind. Just walking alongside you is going to be enough for me. [ drapes himself over five and watches him finish off the eggs. ] You want the remainder of the coffee?

[ Oh. Cute. He likes that, and he brings his hand to his chin so he can give him a quick kiss before he reaches for the coffee and finishes it ]

You know, I was ready to actually offer you a match if you needed it to cheer up. But a walk around the place sounds just as good.

You can't take that back you know. We're going to have a fight, at least at some point today. I want to see sensei come at me with everything he's got... but we can go on the walk first. I think I need to clear my head anyway.

[ he just laughs, and will move away from him once he's done with the meal ]

I'd say I might be rusty since I haven't fought others for fun in, well. Forever. But no, I'll still wipe the floor with you.

Come on.

[ and he'll hold his hand out for him to reach ]

Get dressed and we're going.

Hah! you're hilarious, sensei, I'm going to kick. you. ass. And I bet you'll enjoy every second of it. [ snickers. ] You are *into* that, no?

[ grabs his hand and leans down to kiss it. ]

Alright. [ time to get dressed !!! ]

[ The kiss makes his cheeks go pink just as much as the call out on the fact he'll likely enjoy it, but he clears his throat, trying to hide it as best as he can.

Honestly, it's good to see him in better spirits, so he won't complain too much ]

Aren't you into that sort of thing as well?

I am. [ smirks. ] I love a good fight, sensei, and I have been looking forward to one with you for some time now.

Well if you manage to get me to use my time traveling abilities I'll give you a reward.

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