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...who else is going to come in my room in the morning, mm? [ the blowjob comment just gets a bit of a laugh. ] I guess this means you owe me one.

Later maybe.

I've gotten breakfast for you, if you'd like.

[ it's coffee, eggs and bacon and a monstrosity of a sandwich with peanut butter and marshmallows ]

[ he finally rolls over and sits up, looking at what five’s brought him. he hasn’t really had much of an appetite lately, but this is really cute, so he’ll at least try to eat some of it. ] Is this a creation of your own? [ points to the sandwich as he, first, goes for the coffee. ]

[ what’s a marshmallow??? ]

My sister used to prepare it for me when I was a kid. I figured you might enjoy it.

I’ll give it a try. It looks good.

[ setting the coffee down he reaches for five, trying to drag him right up into his space. ] You didn’t play in that stupid game the other day, did you?

[ he lets him drag him just fine, arms going around him and moving right against him. He's not surprised he's mentioned a game — Childe hasn't been all up in his face quite as much and he figured something might have happened. Which is absolutely part of why he did this. ]

No.

What happened?

...a board game with status effects. [ still sort of dodging the question, but he’s absolutely smushing himself straight into five. ]

That's not what I asked.

[ but his tone of voice is soft and gentle for once, and he'll start stroking his back gently. ]

What happened to you, Harbinger? I'm not exactly keeping track of all of your movements but I did notice something must be off.

...

It hadn't been a good time, is all, nothing worth dwelling on. I'd rather just forget all about it.

[ Well that

worries him considerably. ]

[ he'll just tug him closer and then kiss the top of his head ]

I won't push it if you don't want to talk about it. But if you want, well. I'll listen.

Not necessarily now.

[ he withers into five's lap and sighs. a few minutes go by and he's just silent, trying to decide if he even wants to talk about it, because it was humiliating. he gets that everybody was affected by this, that, and the other thing... but now that he's sobered up and no longer affected by fairy magic... he wishes he could just forget it all... ]

I was paraded around the room like a dog, a literal dog, ...given ears and a tail and... a new name... I had the servants crown so all I wanted to do was please those wearing the crowns, so I let them fuck me.

[ It's odd to see Childe so defeated. And it immediately makes him furious. It's a feeling he didn't expect and that he's not sure how to handle - or if he even understands it at all. And he knows he doesn't have the emotional competence to handle this conversation, either, but what is he supposed to do?

Childe is upset and he, well. Just doesn't like to see that. Things were so much easier with Delores. ]

. . . so you were humiliated in front of everyone.

...I don’t think the other group of people noticed, since they had started an orgy of their own, but I... don’t know. It’s the fact that it happened at all, and that I didn’t care and eagerly went along with it, because I thought it was my place and pleasing these people seemed to be all I cared about. [ digs his nails into five’s front. ] I hate it. I hate thinking about it. I’m not weak. I... something like that shouldn’t have happened...

You're right that it shouldn't have happened.

But you didn't eagerly go along with it, Harbinger. You weren't yourself and your mind was clouded, you said it yourself.

That doesn't make you weak. It makes you like everyone else here. If this happened to me, would you be boiling with rage over it or would you call me weak?

I would be boiling with rage on your behalf, but... no... I wouldn't be calling you weak. I just wish I could forget it all, but it's going to haunt me like a nightmare.

If it gives you any comfort I'm also boiling with rage on your behalf. I understand those people were likely as affected as you, but still.

[ but this isn't about him and he needs to provide some emotional comfort, otherwise why is he even here to start with. He'll keep stroking his back gently, keeping him there like he can shield him from any of this ]

You're not weak. And you're not a dog, or a servant. I realize nothing I tell you will make you feel better but if there is anything that would keep your mind off of it, well. I'll do that.

...you made me breakfast and you’re here. I think that’s a good start. [ drags five into a chaste kiss. ] Let me try this sandwich of yours. It looks monstrous. [ he gives him another kiss, happy to have five nearby. ] In a good way, of course.

[ he's catching feelings. How come every day he spends with this guy it feels more and more dangerous, and not because he already said he'd murder anyone who tried to take him away? ]

I don't take responsibility for it if you don't like it. I'll just eat it instead.

Hah. I’m not going to let you eat my sandwich. [ a chuckle as he reaches for it, lounging back to take a bit. ] Mm~ it’s not bad. Sweet and salty~ kind of like you. [ brushes his lips over five’s cheek. ] Do you want a bite? I’m sure you didn’t eat this morning.

[ there is a very long pause at that ]

...

I didn't, no. I wanted to eat with you.

...

[ ohno, that's cute. he sets the sandwich aside to grab five into another kiss. what if we make out instead of eating? ]

[ well he won't turn out makeouts. There's a surprised noise when he pulls him into the kiss but he returns it immediately, his hand moving to the back of his neck like he can pull him any closer ]

I hope you don't mind if I monopolize all of your time for today, sensei. Maybe after breakfast we can just... go for a walk...

Oh I'll have to clear my very busy schedule of doing absolutely nothing worthwhile at all.

But for you, I'll manage.

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